There are days when I have hits left and right on inspired thoughts and ways to serve my people.
I feel in flow, thoughts come, then more, then even more until I feel completely unstoppable.
I LOVE being used as a channel for Source to express His Divine message that wakes you up and calls you to be more. It lights me up….it’s like oxygen to me.
So on the days when I feel blank, I’m not super excited to say the least.
It takes personal commitment to show up and start typing or talking and it feels choppy and weird and completely full of effort (which is the opposite of flow) and my mind just wants to show me every reason why I should just stop now, while I’m ahead.
But I know that the only way to get to that inspiration, some days, is to allow the empty feeling to just be (without judging it) and show up anyway.
When I show up, I can trust and know that God meets me where I am.
So here I am, a complete blank slate with nothing to say but the willingness to be a channel and asking God to use me to deliver whatever it is that my corner of the world needs to hear.
I drop into my heart, and ask with interest, “God, direct my path and be the thoughts and words along the way. I let go of my agenda and my need for anything to look a certain way. If it were left up to me, I’d probably fuck it up pretty good, so I’m going to turn things over to You and trust that exactly what needs to come through will.”
And then I let go. I just stay available and keep going and fully trust and expect that it will come. And if it doesn’t, that’s okay too because I’ve already surrendered what this is all supposed to look like.
I immediately feel better. Surrender always makes me feel better. My need to control and make things happen is never pretty.
And that feeling is all I need for now. Free. Giving. Available. No agenda. Just presence.
And then I realize, maybe this empty space is actually the thing I needed. Maybe I’m supposed to spend time in the space of the unknown. Maybe the realization is that sometimes I will wait and wait longer and wait some more. And that IS the lesson.
Here’s what I know for sure. Everything is here to serve me. Everything in this Universe supports me and my Soul’s journey to awaken and wake up other beautiful souls along the way.
So if I’m here as a blank slate with nothing really to say, than that is serving me in the most profound way. It gives me room to expand. There is no noise in the silence. I become aware of the bigness of God and my part in His calling.
It connects me to that Source and reminds me that I AM THAT.
There is nothing for me to do. Only to be a vessel. Empty out. Release.
Being a channel for Life isn’t always easy. It would be amazing if you could just set the intention one day to surrender and be used and everything just showed up in that moment and every moment so that no questions ever came up to challenge you.
But that was never Life’s promise. Life promised to give us everything that we need. Not everything that we think we want.
And while I believe that our SOUL receives everything that It wants, that often looks much different than what WE think it’s supposed to.
The spiritual path to awakening is not easy. It takes you moving into a part of you that you don’t know and can’t recognize yet. It takes faith, and surrender, and complete trust even when you have no guarantees and even when it looks quite different than you expected. (I expected to have some brilliant, life-changing, earth-shattering message to share with you today….which I actually am sharing, but it looks nothing like I expected! AND…I trust that this is exactly what YOU needed today too.)
As a channel for Truth, you just don’t get to choose when it comes, what it looks like, and how others receive it.
It is only up to you to decide to be a willing channel or not.
I say yes everyday. No matter what.
Because it is the Life in my veins.
It fuels me, fulfills me, energizes me, inspires me, fills me with joy.
It is what I have been called to BE.
And if you have been called to be a channel, that is all you get to decide too. To allow or not.
But is that really actually a choice?
It’s like giving you a choice to breathe or not. If you want to live, you breathe.
So breathe.
BE.
ALLOW.
And you will always, always, ALWAYS receive exactly what it is you needed.
EMPTY. ALLOW. REPEAT.
