Just as I think I have it nailed. I tell my friend, “I can’t believe it took me so long to really get it. But now, I get it. It all makes sense. Nothing matters except that I’m connected to God. And when I’m available to that Spirit, everything feels good, it flows, I see through the lens of possibility!”
In that moment, as I was speaking with her, I ignorantly but truly believed that I had arrived. Now that I knew what it was like to be in that energy, there was no way I was going back. The high was too addicting.
I can feel it again as I type this and it excites me. There is no denying that aligning with the power of the Universe is the most important action you can take. If there is just one thing to do today, or any day, it is align with the thoughts of God.
Just don’t beat up on yourself when one day you wake up and it’s….well….gone? No, not gone. You know it’s not gone. It’s there. It’s always there and available. But you can’t find it.
After that conversation with my friend, the next day that’s just what happened. I felt like my high had worn off and I wanted another hit but I just couldn’t find it. I never expected it to be gone. I thought that once I had discovered it, it was mine forever. I did the work. I had gotten there before. But it wasn’t working!!
I started to go down the checklist of all the “things”. I coached myself the way I would coach my best client. “Tap into the feeling!” Nope. “Change your thoughts”. Nope. Struggle. Grasp! Claw!
I knew that I had to give up the struggle. But if I just gave up the struggle, it felt like I was giving up. Doesn’t it mean I don’t care?
Remember that girl that you felt so bad for in high school who was so obsessed with that boy? And she was ALWAYS around and hanging on him and if only she would just give him some air to breathe maybe he would like her? But she comes off as desperate and clingy, which is a total turn off.
Get it? That was me. Obsessed and clingy.
Now, of course it’s not like I was turning God off. God wants me always even more than I want that connection. But the energy of neediness sends the message that I’m not allowing the flow of God in the present moment. Which becomes my experience.
So my message to you today is that there will be times when you feel tuned in and there will be times when you want desperately to be but aren’t. Give yourself a break when you aren’t. Stop struggling, striving, trying. Just relax and know that it IS there. Laugh. Walk. Take a breath. Release.
And when you least expect it, you’ll return to that loving energy that is always giving, always abundant, and always available.
