by admin | Dec 11, 2019 | Uncategorized
I know that hiding out feels real safe right now.
The fear of being judged by others just doesn’t seem all that appealing.
But you know just as well as I do that hiding out is eventually going to lead to a slow, painful kind of death.
You might not physically die, but your Soul won’t tolerate you playing small forever.
Eventually She will tug and pull at your heart so much that you will have to either step up and start being the real You, or deal with the pain of staying small.
You were meant for a greater purpose. Simply existing wasn’t part of your game plan. And yes, it IS your game plan.
You had 100% buy in before you were born. You designed the whole thing. You showing up as queen of your message was something you had no doubt would happen.
So now do it.
There’s really nothing to do, per se.
Just show up. Be here. Stand in your power. Be willing to be that channel for whatever wants to happen through you.
It’s that simple. And that difficult.
You want answers. You want guarantees. You want to know that everything is going to turn out the way you picture it.
But you know it doesn’t really work that way.
Sometimes you are going to have to go into it blind and let God lead the way.
Sometimes you are not going to get what you thought you wanted.
Sometimes it is not going to look the way you thought it should.
There are no guarantees in this world.
And if you’re putting your faith in the world of form, you’re going to be let down over and over again.
This world has nothing to offer you.
YOU are God’s gift to the world.
Everything that you require is within you.
You need to start seeing life through that perspective. If you want real and lasting change, you need to.
You need to stop believing what you can currently see if you want to see something else.
It just won’t happen until you do.
I know that it feels hard sometimes. Your senses are so convincing and all the stories you’ve been telling yourself for so long feel so true by now that believing the opposite just feels crazy.
Can you just be crazy then?
Can you drop all the rules and forget what seems logical and just go a little insane?
What if forgetting all that you thought you knew could lead you to discovering the only real truth?
What if letting go of your stories would reveal the Truth about you and your unlimited power?
Can you just imagine for a moment if you really, wholeheartedly believed that you were limitless?
Yea, yea, I know…you’ve claimed that for yourself. You’ve written the affirmations. You’ve plastered it all over social media.
But do you buy it?
Or are you affirm, affirm, affirming it until someday, maybe…maybe you’ll see something you don’t see now and you’ll finally be convinced that what you’ve been telling yourself all along is really true?
What if you just decided.
Decided right now that you don’t have to believe everything you believe. You don’t have to buy into the limiting stories anymore.
You can let go of your need for approval and validation.
You can be your biggest fan.
You can hand all the details over to the Universe and just make the choice right now to show up and see what happens.
To take that first step, whatever that first step is, without needing to know what the following step looks like or where it will lead.
What if you just stopped trying to control, figure things out, and force things to go your way,
and just allowed.
What would that look like? What would it look like to just allow the larger aspect of you (the Real You) to emerge from the shadows where you’ve been hiding Her?
What has seemed like the scariest thing to do is actually the only way you’ll be authentically happy.
What are you really afraid of?
Are you afraid of being wrong? Not really knowing who you are meant to be, and then going for something that doesn’t actually fit?
Well that’s just a little silly when you think about it. Because who really knows exactly who they are anyway????
I mean, is there really some final product that you’ll end up waking up to someday?
Do some people exist that just one day discovered exactly who they were and then never changed or evolved beyond that?
So just let that go right now. We are all expanding, growing, shifting, transforming, deepening who we are, letting go of more and more along the way.
You can’t get this wrong.
That’s what you need to know.
You just can’t eff this up.
You’ve been so scared of messing up and making mistakes that you can’t take back.
But no matter how bad you mess up, it’s not really a mess up.
No matter how scattered you begin, you’ll always receive clarity along the way.
And new gifts are revealed as you step more fully into your sovereign self.
You will be amazed at how much genius, wisdom, expression, love, and enlightenment were already within you.
But your larger self won’t be surprised at all.
She’ll just be happy that you finally woke up to the truth of your amazing, brilliant, unstoppable self.
by admin | Dec 8, 2019 | Uncategorized
I think you need to hear something that maybe you’ve heard a million times before, or never at all, but today I hope that it lands on your heart where you can really absorb the intensity and truth of my words.
You are not only qualified to answer the calling of your soul to be a divine messenger and inspirer to uplift and awaken this world,
You are the BEST person for the job.
I want you to really get this in your bones. God didn’t hand out your calling to 100 people hoping that someone would jump on it. He appointed it to you and you alone.
There is nobody else who can fulfill your purpose.
There is nobody else who can tell your story, teach your sermon, inspire your people, or connect to your audience the way you can.
There is nobody else who can take your place and serve your mission.
You were born for this purpose.
You were born to give, to serve, to share, and to shine.
And I get it….it’s pretty intimidating to actually admit that you are the best at what you’ve been called to do. Especially when you see what others have already accomplished and how long they’ve been at their purpose work.
Your disillusioned mind is pretty convinced that admitting that you are THE BEST is self-centered, who are you to say such a thing? What would people think if they only knew you thought so highly of yourself?
They would believe you…that’s what.
The first person who must believe in you before anyone else is going to…is YOU.
If you think that maybe someday, when you’ve had more practice, more training, more clients, more FB likes, a bigger audience, more confidence, and more followers…more, more, more…before you crown yourself queen of your message, then your audience will be waiting until someday.
Guess what? Someday will never come.
You’ll always be waiting for something else to change or to happen before you feel worthy.
Worthiness is an inside job.
Here’s the great news about feeling worthy. When you understand the level of life that is available to express through you at any given time as you show up for your mission, you can’t help but feel worthy.
Because it is not the physical you that is making anything happen. All the planning, learning, thinking, and all the other human stuff that we do to put our success into action isn’t really all that important.
What is more vital than anything is the connection that you maintain with Life and the level at which you allow that Life to express through you.
You aren’t doing anything. You are being done.
Do you get that?
You are being done.
If you are really showing up for your purpose work, to deliver the message you were born to speak, then you are being spoken.
And the only thing that you can do is either agree to become a channel, or get in the way.
Those are the only two options.
Of course, who would choose to get in the way? But you choose that almost every day in some fashion.
You get in the way by judging your message. You get in the way by doubting your worth. You get in the way by holding back and not showing up the way you know you must.
You get in the way by waiting for something outside of your to change or for yourself to feel better or more confident before you take massive action towards your dreams.
You get in the way by taking some kind of action, but not the RIGHT kind of action, because you want to feel purposeful but you are really just hiding out.
You end up showing up and hiding out at the same time, and then wondering why you aren’t getting the results that you want.
Because you don’t have the energy behind the actions.
You don’t have the belief.
Believing in your small self is impossible. And that’s what you’ve been trying to do before now.
You’ve been trying to believe in the version of you that has fears, doubts, worries, insecurities. You’ve been trying to believe in the version of you that is trying to protect your tiny human life and the safety of your image.
That you must die in order for the real you to emerge.
The Real You sees past all the fears that are holding you back. The Real You already knows that you have what it takes and then some, so there are no worries, doubts, or insecurities from that level. She’s confident AF because she’s seen the vision and knows that you’re already rocking it hard core.
The Real You is helping you take down the walls of this tiny human life to demonstrate to you what is on the other side.
There is infinite creative wisdom on the other side of your self doubt.
There is pure potential on the other side of your self doubt.
There is everything you’ve ever wanted, right here, right now, invisible to your human eyes but available nonetheless.
Maybe you’ve doubted because you can’t see past those bricks you’ve piled on one after the other until the wall blocked your vision and made you think this is all that there is.
But you forgot that you actually built that wall.
You know what that means?
There’s a part of you that KNOWS what’s on the other side. She’s seen it.
When you forget just who the heck you are, close your eyes, tune into the higher version of yourself, and ASK HER.
She will tell you. She will show you. She will light you up with remembrance.
Take action from that place of power; from the power of your higher self who really is more than capable of running the show.
And you really will see, maybe for the first time (but definitely not for the last), that you are the best at what you do and who you are.
Hold onto that vibe.
When you feel it, own it.
And return back to it multiple times daily.
This is how you awaken more and more to your divine message and your ability to deliver it with confidence.
Feel.
Notice.
Affirm.
Repeat.
by admin | Dec 4, 2019 | Uncategorized
Are you still waiting for some distant, far-off day to come before you choose to really show up for life?
What could your life be like if you showed up today as if it was already here? Because it actually is.
There is no such thing as tomorrow. Tomorrow only exists in your fantasy. And even yesterday is simply a memory.
Today is all that there is.
Let’s go further down the rabbit hole.
Everything exists now.
All of infinity and all the potential that will ever manifest through you is available right now.
Not after you complete that course.
Not after you land a certain number of clients.
Not after you’ve been making money in your business for a certain number of months/years.
NOW.
To the extent that you step into that infinite potential, you will experience it.
To the extent that you step into your genius, you will experience it.
To the extent that you step into your confidence, brilliance, talent, and light, you will experience it.
Being who you were born to be really isn’t that complicated or difficult.
It isn’t complicated because you are being guided and directed by God.
The process behind what it takes to really achieve mastery is probably complicated AF, but I don’t have to know how it works. God does. And He does. So I don’t even have to think about it.
Being who you were born to be isn’t even difficult. Being who you AREN’T meant to be is a lot harder. And definitely more painful.
When you’re not being your true Self, you have to think about so much! You have to consider what other people think about you, you have to contemplate what you’ll say, you have to do all the work on your own (because the Universe won’t support your fake-as-shit persona that masks your bright and beautiful light).
For me, I choose ease. I choose guidance. I choose support for the Universe, thank you very much.
I just don’t have the energy anymore to juggle all the balls in the air by myself.
I never really was good at that.
Handing my life over to God and just adopting His perfection for my life is so much easier, and promises so much more than I could even dream up alone, let alone make happen.
But it DOES require you to show up.
If you want to be a channel for excellence, abundance, and joy, you do have to show up fully for life and be willing to be used by God.
It means that you have to give up your petty attachments to how things are supposed to go, and accept that there’s a bigger plan for your life.
You need to make your connection to that Source of Life the most important and vital element of your day.
You need to be committed to showing up no matter what.
If fear arises, you show up. If you get triggered by someone’s behavior, you show up. If you are confronted with fear, you show up. If you don’t feel like being a bigger person, you show up anyway.
And you need to give it everything you have with all the confidence you have. Give everything your everything.
Yes, even when you hate your job. Yes, even when someone acts like an asshole. Yes, even when you feel disappointment. Yes, yes, yes.
Because nobody owes you anything. Which is great because they can’t offer you anything anyway.
YOU are God’s gift to the world. The only thing that you can do is give yourself away.
And as you begin giving of yourself, your time, your wisdom, your genius, your passion, your purpose….
God will give you more to give.
Today is your only opportunity to expand more into that infinite potential of Divinity; to manifest more of heaven on earth.
No more waiting for something or someone else to show up. No more hiding out until you feel better about yourself. No more allowing fear to paralyze you from doing what you were born in this lifetime to do.
There is nothing to wait for.
It is all here waiting for you.
It is here. Now.
Tap into it.
Manifest it.
Activate it.
Tune into it.
And you will experience it.
by admin | Dec 4, 2019 | Uncategorized
Do you think you don’t have enough to offer, enough to say, enough to make a difference?
Are you holding back your message, not showing up for your mission because you don’t think you have enough to offer yet?
Like you have to learn a little bit more or polish up your words a little better or feel more confident and clear about things before you step up in a bigger, bolder way?
You’re kinda comparing yourself to people who have been in the game a while and just wonder what you could possibly have to offer that these legends don’t already shine at, huh?
Let’s just be clear on something.
You will never feel quite ready.
There will always be someone to compare yourself to.
Fear will always try and stop you.
That’s fear’s job.
But your job is to be bigger than your fears.
Say “thank you so much for showing me my thresholds! Now I’m ready to breakthrough so please just step aside! Or don’t, but I’m doing this regardless!”
All great messengers started small.
All great messengers once had doubt.
All great messengers once had no audience to talk to.
But the message burned bright enough, strong enough, deep enough that denying it became impossible.
And you’re feeling that same burn.
You know the only way to feel good is to just show up and do the work.
Be the channel.
Speak the message.
But the feeling of fear is almost greater than the possibility of freedom.
Almost.
Your ego is trying its damndest to convince you that you’re better off playing small and hiding out.
And maybe you’d believe it if you were new to this game.
But you’ve been at this long enough to realize that it’s too painful to play small.
Denial is no longer an option.
The message must come out or else you’ll die!
Of course if you aren’t a born messenger that sounds melodramatic.
But if you were born to shine and share, you know exactly what I mean.
There comes a point in time where you put your foot down, draw a line in the sand, and say, “Today is the day when everything changes! Fear will no longer control me! I must do what I’ve been called to do. I have no choice any more!”
And that declaration is exactly what God needs from you to pour out His support, creative wisdom, infinite genius, power, and grace.
You see, you felt scared because you felt alone. But you never were.
You thought you had to do the work.
But it has already been done.
You thought you had to think your way through this.
But your mind was just getting in the way.
Of course you would be scared as a drop of water thinking it had to figure out how to be the ocean.
You just merge.
You allow.
You become.
You become used by God as a vessel for greatness.
It is not you doing the work.
And now you know.
Maybe you already did. Maybe you always did.
On some level that’s true for all of us.
But I’m shining the light on the Truth so that you remember.
You have to be willing to get completely out of the way and just show up.
Show up awkwardly.
Show up clumsily.
Show up willing to mess up until you get it right.
Because the only thing you have to perfect is letting go more.
Allowing more.
Caring less and less about what others think and being who you were born to be regardless of who listens.
There will become a point in time where you don’t care if anybody ever shows any interest in what you have to say; the pull will feel so strong that you’ll do it anyway.
But the time beween then and now will be filled with pain that starts tolerably enough but increases as time goes by.
The pain of knowing that you were meant for something more than what you’re currently living.
So why not just take the first steps now, to short cut through all the drama that will likely show up to push you towards your purpose.
You don’t really have a ton of time.
It’s not like you’re promised another decade before you leave this planet. You have no idea when your last breath will be.
I know that at the end of my life, I want to review it with a sense of accomplishment and pride knowing that I didn’t let fear block me from actually living.
Showing up for your purpose work is actually the difference between living and not really living at all.
And all the things that you now seek as an avoidance tactic will remain out of reach until you commit to saying YES! to that thing that pulls you.
And when you do say YES!, the world will bow at your feet and heaven and earth will be moved to hand you all that you’ve desired.
Because Life is attracted to those who show up for It.
Life gets excited when someone wakes up from the trance and is willing to get out of the way and give It some room to make miracles happen.
It’s all so exciting when you actually think about it.
If you could just get past all the bullshit that isn’t even real, you’d see that everything that wants to unfold on your behalf is actually so much better than you thought it could be.
And honestly, so much easier, too, once you transcend the ego’s way of staying small.
Nobody, including me, is going to convince you. It’s funny that a million inspiring words will never be enough to compensate for the experience of one big leap.
So just leap. And leap again. And every single day forever….leap.
Otherwise you’ll stagnate.
And that’s never any fun.
by admin | Dec 1, 2019 | Uncategorized
The way you’ve been looking at the challenges in your life is failing you.
Right now, you think that when shit comes up that you don’t like, you pray it away, asking for life to be easier somehow.
I want to suggest that that is the wrong kind of prayer.
Sure, asking for life to get easier feels right. Who wouldn’t want a cushy, easy, non-resistant, problem-free life, right?
But looking deeper, resistance is actually necessary in order to grow.
Think about your biggest life lessons. The moments in your life where you learned the most. The moments where you come out the other side so damn proud of yourself because you accomplished something you didn’t think you’d be able to.
In my 20s, I walked away from an 8 year relationship with a man who wasn’t ready to fully commit to me and at the time it felt like the most difficult thing I had ever confronted. I loved him so much and I had so much time invested in the relationship, leaving him meant leaving so much more than just him. I had a lot of my identity wrapped up in that relationship (different convo for a different day) and we shared mutual friends and the list goes on. Severing the relationship completely felt more painful than the dull ache of staying, but I knew I had to do it.
And it turned out to be the biggest opportunity for growth in my life.
Think about the biggest struggles you’ve gone through. Once the dust settles, you can always harvest valuable life lessons that make you feel strong, confident, and capable.
When you run away from challenge, you don’t give yourself the opportunity to grow.
But if you accept the challenges that life lovingly gives you, you develop the muscles and the strength to handle more from life with ease.
If you really think about it, do you really want life to be easy all of the time?
Sure, it sounds nice on paper. But wouldn’t that actually get kinda old after a while?
Like playing a game that you instantly won, or won every single time guaranteed. Where’s the fun in that? What do you actually learn from that?
There’s evidence of struggle and growth in all of life’s expression! A baby chick has to struggle and fight to get out of the egg shell. If the chick waited until it was easier to break free, it would literally die!
A seed has to struggle to develop roots before it sprouts into a beautiful plant. If it just wanted to see the sun all day without the digging of deeper roots in the dark soil, it would topple over at the first gust of wind!
Think about that!
If you didn’t develop deep roots, wouldn’t YOU topple over when pushed by life?
You don’t want that!
You want to be strong! You want to be capable! You want to stand firm with both feet planted when the storm comes!
For those of us asking for an easier life, perhaps we are making the wrong request.
Maybe instead of asking for things to get easier, the better request would be to receive loving guidance, supernatural support, and reassurance that we will survive and come out stronger.
I know that for me, when I walked away from the only real, adult relationship I ever knew with no guarantees that I would ever love again (I know it sounds dramatic, but anyone who has ever walked away from true love knows what I mean), I was so damn proud of myself. I knew how to create healthy boundaries for myself in future relationships, and I learned how to walk away with confidence when those boundaries were crossed.
I had developed certain muscles that helped me to become strong in areas I was once weak. I had experience that I could’ve only received through the pain of the ending of that relationship. And I can now see the purpose and necessity for that challenge.
So much of what we now enjoy is heightened because of our past struggles. (Ex: I appreciate my husband’s attentiveness and loyalty so much more because of my past relationships!)
So while taking it easy and having life handed to you on a silver platter does sound enticing, especially when you’re in the middle of a shit storm, just realize that there’s a reason for the storm and it is for your benefit.
Remembering this when it really matters isn’t always the easiest thing to do. So I’m giving you a few tools to help bring you back to calm when it feels like you can’t handle what life is handing you at the moment:
- It always gets better! Pain is inevitable, but it is also temporary. I know it sounds trite, but this too shall end.
- Tap your way to relief! Use EFT/Tapping to relieve negative emotions that feel overwhelming.
- Focus on your feelings. Retelling your story is only going to create more negative energy and keep you stuck. Focusing on your feelings brings you into your body and into this present moment where real healing can begin.
- Practice love and acceptance. There is a beautiful shift in energy when love and acceptance are brought into the equation. The struggle that once felt impossible and insurmountable is instantly lifted and relief is palpable. Trust me! Love and acceptance for all things as they are has been my biggest teacher!
I would love to hear if you have any other practices that have helped you through a challenge that felt impossible in the moment, but ended up being one of your greatest gifts! Comment below with yours!
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